No matter what, it will never be the same anymore.

Sorry guys
i haven't been posting these few days
for Wednesday, i just don't have the mood
for Thursday, i'm simply too tired

Ok..
i guess i shall just be frank with you guys, my friends/mates/family
i didn't get into the team
i feel so insecure about telling everyone this
but i know it just a matter of how soon it will be
even B. knew about it now
i guess his also trying not to mention it
nevermind, maybe his glad because i can spend more time with him
instead of coating myself in my own sweat & blood

秦老师 made my condition worst by making me cry in class yesterday
i didn't want to, but i just can't hold back my tears anymore
i went to school with my eyes half-open
i just can't seem to open it fully from all the crying
& in class, she agitated me
maybe she just happen to press the wrong button
i don't know.

Met B. in the evening
dinner @ Chomp Chomp
we had a great time there
& the food is..
FABULOUS! :p
(No wonder my weight is gaining instead of falling.)
i'm such a glutton
but B. said i'm not fat, just chubby
anyway, what's the diff luh!

Don't have much to say for today.

God gave me back my love, but he took my passion away.